Thursday, March 30, 2006
Irreplaceable
Before I came to Australia, I was majora depressed.
And I LOVE my people for cheering me up.
BUT..............
I realized that one of the most common ways people sought to cheer me up was just to tell me that the whole world is replaceable, that Aussie is BIGGER than Brunei and I'll find a new group.
Truth, innit?
That Nazmi would soon be replaced by yet someone who was just like her.
That I'd find someone EVEN more blunt than Jas.
That someone would depend on me as much as Mala did and make me feel as needed.
That Sarah's moral presence was a dime a freakin dozen.
That please, the motherliness Divs showed me? Easily found elsewhere!!
That Park's brash nature could be found anywhere, darlin, don't worry.
Tash? You're just like her!!! Find someone like you and she isn't that unique anymore!!!
Teo? Lyn? Josh? Fel? Vee? Clinton? Ches? Mel? Stephen? Grace? All my ydm-ers and classies and schoolmates?
Pah! Will I not find anOTHER youth group? Will I never be part of another class?
SO DON'T WORRY, SANA, BE HAPPY!
But you know what?
I'm never going to find someone who made me smile quite as much as Nazmi did.
No one will EVER tell me I've screwed up just as well as Jas has done.
Mala STILL comforts me, and her voice makes me feel loved, every time I talk to her.
My moral standpoint, Sarah, her value increases with every day that I don't see her, simply because I need her now just as much as I ever did.
Divs will still always be able to make me cry when I feel like absolute crap and she tells me to look up......there is hope.
No one, I repeat, NO ONE, will ever tell it like it is, more than Parkavi.
And Tash? Please. WHO COULD REPLACE HER?!
You see, technically, these people, these wonderful individuals and all the others I mentioned and even the ones I didn't mention, should fade. In accordance with the normal way of life, logic, statistics, figures and everything with credence, no one single human being is totally unique. There WILL be others.
But as Paul Brodeur (no, I don't know who the hell he is either) brilliantly put it, "Statistics are human beings with the tears wiped off".
Statistics rarely include leeway for human emotion. I love you guys, and don't ever ask me EVER again if I've replaced you.
Because, quite simply, I couldn't.
Saturday, March 11, 2006
OH, and since I forgot....
Sure, Muntasir, go ahead, with my blessing!! :)
And thanks lots!!
And YES, I know its late, sue me. I was just UPROOTED from my homeland.
I miss Brunei.
Some uncle asked me what nationality I was. Believe it or not, I told him I was Indian first.......
And Bruneian second.
And the last couple of comments were GENERAL, people, AS IN TO ALL OF YOU.
Dumbasses.
;)
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Allo There, Mate!
HELLO, adoring fans, friends, foes, freaks, hoes, bros, family, lurkers, be's and their wannas, children, members of the royal court and people who think I should quit labelling and get a life, greetings from TAREE!!!!
First off, this place is actually smaller than I expected, if that is possible. I kid you not, people, freaking Brunei is a spacious alternative. There are about 20,000 people here. 20,000, people!! GAWD, am I doomed to non existent, barely on the map, blink and you'll miss it places all my LIFE???
Now that I've officially out-bitched myself, let me restart by saying that this is the most quaint little town in the world. Honest to God, its such a nice place. Like Brunei, a little haven, miniature paradise kinda place.
Remember I was terrified that I'd end up in this murky little settlement with one community toilet and racist freak people chasing me with pitchforks and blowtorches?
I was wrong.
I've never seen a place where everyone smiles at everyone. In India, if you walk around smiling at people, 1. You are trying to scam them, 2. You are a pervert, 3. There is something wrong with your face.
I've never seen a place where everyone smiles at everyone. In India, if you walk around smiling at people, 1. You are trying to scam them, 2. You are a pervert, 3. There is something wrong with your face.
I LIKE THIS PLACE!!!
But I'm really, missing home. Was listening to old recordings I did with Naz, Lyn, Jas, Mir and Josh, to name a few..........and god, I miss you guys.
But I'll never lose you.
But I'll never lose you.
And as long as I keep them recordings, you'll never lose me either.
As soon as I get my OWN compy, I'll tell you all about iskoole and post up pictures of me in my clown sui......er, uniform.