...and have never said before. I hold things in too much and overthink every damn situation. I have never been implosive, but under the comfortable guise of not being rash and not regretting my actions and blah blah blah, there have been almost too many things I wish I'd said...but didn't.

- I can help you.

- If you held me, it would help.

- I'm sorry.

- It's my fault.

- I was desperate.

- I didn't mean it.

- You hurt me.

- If I could tear into you now, I would. Maybe then you'd get the idea.

- I wish you could understand me.

- I'd give anything for you to see yourself through my eyes....then you'd understand why I'm so proud of you.

- What I said was out of line.

- I can do it!!!!

- Thank you.

- Seeing you around her makes me want to physically hurt you both.

- Don't. You. Dare.

- I have nothing to learn from you, but you have everything to learn from me.

- Shut up, goddamnit!

- Say no to animal sex (OK, so this one's a lie, just wanted to make sure you were still with me!)

- You disgust me.

- I wish I could be like you.

- I act the way I do because I'm jealous.

- I understand every bit of your pain....I just want you to explain it to me so you'll learn.

- I know more than you.

- You're an idiot and I want you to know that I KNOW IT.

- You're being an ass and no one's fooled.

- Being around you makes me happy enough to break into ridiculous song.

- I will never, ever forgive you.

- Please don't hate me for the bad side, you haven't see the good in me.

- I wish you'd just shut up and let me think.

- How do you feel about me?

- The way you laugh drives me wild.

- I never did really forgive you.

- I'm over it, but I want you to suffer the way you made me.

- I can wait.

- You aren't important right now.

- Stop being so effing childish. (a TAD rich coming from me, but I actually HAVE thought it!)

- I wish everything you felt for her.....was everything you felt for me.

- I KNOW that if I held you right now, I could remove half your pain....I wish you'd let me.

- I want to be the one that made you smile.

- I AM worth it goddamnit.

- Don't you ever, ever say ANYTHING like that again. (At times, to the mirror)

- You think you're a lot greater than you actually are.

- You will never really know me.

- Bo Bice has woman hair (but then Siti would have sat on me, so yeah...)

- I know you want so badly for me to trust you...but I just can't.

I JUST CAN'T.

Queen Sana at 5:10 PM