Ok, you fool, listen up!!!! THIS COULD BE YOU:


Dear Sana,

Hey, your younger self called and told me you needed some guidance, so here I am. Listen to me, OK? No matter WHAT you decide now, you WILL become a doctor, but ONLY if you want it enough. Apparently, you did, because here I am! And let me tell you, it's NOT as glamourous as it looks.

Addison Montgomery-Shepard is NO indication of what real doctors look like. The so-called Hot Fro? IT'S THINNING. You're doing your usual "I'M FAT, I'M FAT!" thing, but you don't have time to care: you've got 1 miniYou already! I know, 1 miniYou in 10 years, NOT that impressive, but considering you only got married two and a half years ago (And NO, he WASN'T off Shaadi.com), you're not doin' that badly (considering the current bun in the oven and all) ;)

I love what I'm doing though, and it's brought the ENTIRE family so much closer, hasn't it? I mean, mom and dad and Shama and Deepa would love and accept you no matter WHAT you did, but the fact that you WANTED Med and GOT Med filled them with such pride....and now you can discuss your cases with all of them!

Now, remember this: I NEVER looked back on any decision you made. You MADE a decision, and I stuck by it and wore it with PRIDE.

And speaking of which, I just passed my latest board exams :) Thanks so much for not dropping the ball, Sana, because right now? I'm exactly where I want to be, and I couldn't be happier if I tried.


OR THIS COULD BE YOU:

Hey, kid!

So here's the deal, apparently you want to know what to do now? Whatever you do, DON'T repeat what you did with me. I know, I know, freaking out, immersing yourself in self-doubt and letting it eat at you is TYPICALLY something we'd do.....but I'm here to tell you not to.

No matter how wonderful Chem Eng is and how much I love it now, I can't help but wonder, you know. You never really wanted to be a Chemical Engineer, did you? No....you had such dreams in your heart with your Med career.

I will never forget that look in your eyes when you found you missed it by like, a point.

We know, it was ridiculously unfair, but did you ever wonder WHY you missed it? AND NO, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, NO. It WASN'T because you messed up that Physics task, it WASN'T because you dropped Eco and not Math 4, and it WASN'T because you weren't good enough!!!

It's because you did EXACTLY what Mr. Varela (your Maths teacher, idiot, did you REALLY think I'd forget?) told you not to do: You wondered. You forgot to trust yourself. You dropped the ball.

You did. And I'm not blaming you, I'm happy. I've got the wonderful hubby, I've got the wonderful kids....but let's face facts here, whenever Shama and Deepa come over and talk about their wonderful patients....

I still wonder what would have happened if you'd just kept your head.



Now, you know what? You don't HAVE to be a doctor, Sana. You don't, not if that's not what you want. But at this point in your life, it is.

Don't drop the ball. MAKE the damn decision and no matter what, the consequences are of your making, so your control freak nature is satisfied either way. If at the end of the day you don't get Med, it was because God didn't will it. NOT because you got a stupid single bad mark in a stupid single bad test. And for God's sake, talk to God about it. He REALLY does miss hearing from you, you know....and you've tried everything else. Has it worked?

Well, has it?

Everytime you start wondering whether you made the right decision and start to do that thing you ALWAYS do and freak the hell out and make yourself sick and be a loserific whineface and give up and NOT STUDY....

I want you to read this and remember that you made the right decision. Do you know why?

Because YOU made it.

Queen Sana at 9:12 AM