Wow. My first poem in over a YEAR.

This is one of those poems of mine that isn't necessarily DEPRESSING, but just inherently sad.

Now, this actually IS a personal poem....I have never had a drink in my life and I don't intend to anytime soon, but this is what I think I'd be like. No, I don't go around with fake smiles, but the truth is I get unhappy a lot more than people think I do.....I try keeping cheerful but sometimes it DOES get really hard.

Sad Drunk

I’m the sad drunk sitting alone,
The one that you ignore,
I’m the random, the unknown,
The one that needs this more,

Than you with your stupid Cruiser,
That you down to drown your cares,
I’m just that goddamned loser,
Who sits and stares and stares.

The loudest voice you hear is mine,
But that’s when we’re sober again,
That’s when everything’s fine, all fine,
That’s when you won’t see the pain.

I can only unleash it when you won’t recall,
The broken, the painful, the bare,
Till then, I blend nicely into the wall,
When you’re wasted, then buddy, I’ll share.

Because tomorrow’s another day, fresh and new,
I’ll be fun, you’ll be awed, we’ll be cool,
My problems forgotten, at least by you,
For that lonely, miserable fool,

Ain’t someone you’re going to connect with me,
Because she’s so unhappy, so bleak,
This bright and cheerful bundle of glee,
Could have nothing to do with that freak.

You, of course, you have no clue,
That my smiles and my fake, shiny cheer,
Are one act plays, re-enacted for you,
Masking oceans of uncried tears.

Queen Sana at 5:45 PM