It's so damn scary.

These big, huge, scary exams are in just over 2 weeks.

But that's not the scary bit.

The scary bit is how ridiculously underprepped I feel. Oh sure, I've got my folders of notes and my beautifully organized papers and my immaculate schedule.

But it feels so inadequate.....and I'm sitting down to do the things on my list but it all feels so irrelevant. I KNOW, in my heart of hearts, that this is stuff that'll prepare me for these exams and that it's OK, I really SHOULD read Malouf another time and make good notes on him, I SHOULD go through my Rel notes with the syllabus to make sure I haven't missed anything, I SHOULD analyze every text in the BOS Booklet to cover my bases...

I should do all these things.

Yeah?

I know, I know....it's NOT the end of the world, if I don't get into Med, I'll get Biomed and probably be just as happy, if not happier......but all these seem like empty justifications for not using my time as well as I should.

40,000 other people doing this exam with me.....and I still feel like I'm facing this all on my own.

Self-centered cow.

Queen Sana at 2:59 PM