Monday, March 10, 2008
You.
Note to people: Narcissistic post, people, but I badly need it.
Note to self: I will look back on this in a couple of months, both my projects would've been submitted and Boy will think I'm cooler because I'll relax around him.
But for now, I know you need this. So here:
- You are SMART. Don't kid yourself. You know just as well as anyone that memorizing large numbers of facts is a BIG skill, and it takes a reasonably full brain to be able to do it. You can also assimilate and understand this stuff, which gives you a leg up on the memorizers.
- You are CLASSY. Look in the mirror, you moron. I know that right now, you have trouble accepting that wholly. But until then, you've got your beautiful unique clothes and perfect matching jewellery, and if you need those to feel good, then go right ahead.
- You are DETERMINED. Do NOT ever again say that you don't belong here. You've proven that you can work really hard, and you've seen what happens when you do. So shut the hell up, get over this fabulously limiting title of "LOW SELF ESTEEM" and move on. You know what to do and how to do it, so quit whining.
- You are FUNNY. Oh, it's true. You're a bit of a moron and not classically hilarious. But the amount of fun your friends have around you is a group effort and you contribute. You contribute a lot. So what if you don't come up with things as quickly as some people can? You can keep your own group in stitches with your stupidity, and as soon as people understand that about you, the better.
- You are VALUABLE. You know how good it makes you feel when people rely on you. And it works. And you're good at it. So understand what an awesome friend you are and realize that at the end of the day, your failings and stupidities and annoyances do SO LITTLE to detract from your overall worth as a friend: someone dependable, intelligent, honest and opinionated. Freakin, I'D like a friend like you.
- You are WORTH IT. As aforementioned, you can be a total ditz. But if that's all people are going to see, screw them. People closer to you know there's no one better to talk to, to have fun with, to lean on.
I love you more than anyone, and I know you know it.
So go out there and shine, you ho: Look up, you've got NO excuse not to.
Note to self: I will look back on this in a couple of months, both my projects would've been submitted and Boy will think I'm cooler because I'll relax around him.
But for now, I know you need this. So here:
- You are SMART. Don't kid yourself. You know just as well as anyone that memorizing large numbers of facts is a BIG skill, and it takes a reasonably full brain to be able to do it. You can also assimilate and understand this stuff, which gives you a leg up on the memorizers.
- You are CLASSY. Look in the mirror, you moron. I know that right now, you have trouble accepting that wholly. But until then, you've got your beautiful unique clothes and perfect matching jewellery, and if you need those to feel good, then go right ahead.
- You are DETERMINED. Do NOT ever again say that you don't belong here. You've proven that you can work really hard, and you've seen what happens when you do. So shut the hell up, get over this fabulously limiting title of "LOW SELF ESTEEM" and move on. You know what to do and how to do it, so quit whining.
- You are FUNNY. Oh, it's true. You're a bit of a moron and not classically hilarious. But the amount of fun your friends have around you is a group effort and you contribute. You contribute a lot. So what if you don't come up with things as quickly as some people can? You can keep your own group in stitches with your stupidity, and as soon as people understand that about you, the better.
- You are VALUABLE. You know how good it makes you feel when people rely on you. And it works. And you're good at it. So understand what an awesome friend you are and realize that at the end of the day, your failings and stupidities and annoyances do SO LITTLE to detract from your overall worth as a friend: someone dependable, intelligent, honest and opinionated. Freakin, I'D like a friend like you.
- You are WORTH IT. As aforementioned, you can be a total ditz. But if that's all people are going to see, screw them. People closer to you know there's no one better to talk to, to have fun with, to lean on.
I love you more than anyone, and I know you know it.
So go out there and shine, you ho: Look up, you've got NO excuse not to.
Saturday, March 01, 2008
Defence Mech
So here's the reason I don't write poetry anymore.
It's the same reason Sarah and Nazmi aren't so quiet, Jas isn't so flirtatious, Divs isn't so harsh, Kavs isn't so standoffish and in all, the reason we aren't as (insert negative quality here) that we once were.
We've rubbed off on each other, and those defence mechanisms have fallen away. I used to write poetry because I wanted people to think I was smart.
These people let me know that I actually was.
It's the same reason Sarah and Nazmi aren't so quiet, Jas isn't so flirtatious, Divs isn't so harsh, Kavs isn't so standoffish and in all, the reason we aren't as (insert negative quality here) that we once were.
We've rubbed off on each other, and those defence mechanisms have fallen away. I used to write poetry because I wanted people to think I was smart.
These people let me know that I actually was.